here ------------- It took a long time for me to return here.Such long gone, I'm here now.It 's in and I still do not use English to write my own life, even Tho I pushed myself to write some privacy in the English language in my diary book.anyway , I am here, and I can write what I want here, because here, nobody knows who I am am.its very big for me. tracing my memories, so many things happened before I came back.i was with a guy I talked to about a year ago, but things did not work during us.but point, I made it as me, and we had a good time Lineage adenatogether.we no spoke in a long time.Now about myself, I have one guy who, of course, I can not help but fall into.but Truth, somtimes, we simply can not control our feelings.i subject to this guy, who no one anymore.but-I do not care.i I'm not begging to be with him, in fact, I am very happy where I am now. I can be around for a few months, we can go with it fun.even Tho GF, I just want to be his friend.thats pretty much what I want most right now.however, I am so sad and disappointed that he and his GF, to do some things together.i I think kind of jealous and upset.even I'm not planning to be with him, or something, but things can not be easily me.but I still let ourselves that, like the fact that I did before.yes, last one.its Deja vu for me.it think I was the same situation before.the guy who likes some other girl, and I just wait there, wishing he could like me or crush me or something.last, I did, what actually happened, I was with him for several months, I can say one thing that.this, I know this may be wrong but I never ask him to do something for me.i could feel that he has a crush on or me.i know that I am a bad girl, but he likes me, I know I should stop. In fact, I stopped so many things, I think, guilty.today he told me that his GF had to kiss goodbye, the next time, I invited him to win it back.it sucked really sucked.asking who U really like to get another girl sucks.but I know that this is exactly what you need to do.i doLineage 1 adena not want to betray my heart.so I think now it's with her now, hugging ... and blabla, things which can never belong to me.i cound not tell him anything about this.i not even told my best friend.coz I know what I did wrong again, I have drunk up again.i simply not I can do things right me.i have to force myself not to think, not pity, do not become greed.i cool to play with my feelings. This is normal, I can feel it, because it is who I am, as now, should I feel sad when he was with someone else instead of me.i can feel this.coz I love it, even Tho I can not do anything . because it can not be the one who belongs to me, and it can not be someone who can give me everquest 2 goldwhat I really want.maybe I lost my mind at time.things will be good again.i penalty could be reintroduced. Yes, I know that I am miserable, struggling I want to find out where I'm going to half of next year. But my faith is out of control. What I can do is fight and patiently waits. I must do whatever I can to make their lives better and better, and I should slow my pace to see how my life will go and try to enjoy the moment, I have now, my friends and my family.

Every day I spare one hour of time for the Internet. But recently, I was not concerned about the composition. Sounds bad news. It is important that I should become a habit of essay preparation. In fact it was something special. These days it seems to me a plate. This is an intensive revision for the exam. I made a study in concentration, caused a strong desire to receive the university. Although nothing can hinder me. To get the funds to skip at the same time. I have always used the slogan, I think: life springs from sorrow and calamity, death comes with the ease and pleasure. So I will stick to the end regardless of what happens. Repetition is the mother of age conan goldknowledge. It seems that I will repeat repeat and repeat until the knowledge is rooted in the internal memory. I want to learn by heart all night. It seems implausable. "More haste, less speed" is a paradox that you do not understand until you take into account the action. Okay, it's time for dinner. Loneliness will be my faithful company. God bless me, PLZ. At the moment, I felt a bolt from the blue to come to me. You know, I can not grumble before, because I was a lover and his family, even then, I made a fuss of all the events and followed him at all costs, I do not have any scandals him or interfere in his family. In this single day, as I have suffered pain and torment. I can not Rashe single day home.why, that he was so ruthless that I to this lady, this is unfair. Furthermore, hardly incredulous that he divoced with his wife at that lady. In the end, I am upside-down arow to him, we, as separate, so we had no way of stoping the dispute between us. I decided to abandon it. In that difficult, I myself have been locked in a room for three months, and I wept bitter tears constantly. This time, my life is not like a normal person, I do not go out of doors, but did buy a bunch of food writing in the refrigerator. Then, a left that place and came home when my sister saw me, she was statled see me look so thin and do not believe my eyes. I've been in many cities, but when I went, I believe that everything was, and gw goldhis shadow, though I remember it, I have lost my mind. I took it for granted that I phoned him and sent a message in connection with the I cling to the hope that it is possible with him again as well. I was familiar with his wife, and his wife will come to our company before they divorced. Somtimes, I would go to his home, so he told his wife, my staff of office, to hide our relationship. Now, I could not do anything, I had to make a call to his wife. His wife told me he had not returned home after they are divorced at all, except the game with your child every weekend. I was highly upset when I heard the news. I think it is white and do not have any reaction. the fact there were more outside the home. I said I think the scandal, she said, she was too surprised to this.therefor, we begin tracked it. it was too painful for the result. My heart wasbroken and death. and I began to despair of him. True also make me angry, he is not with this girl in the place of the one woman who was 40 years old and divorced yet, and is also the ability and wealth, and gave him money when his business was depressed. so because of divorce on the ladies, not me, two years before. Suddenly one day, I heard his' S cetificate divorce to his car, the facts prove that my colleague gave me a hint at all the time that he was already divorced realed. I asked him where he lived after the divorce. He explained that he preferred to live with his wife as a couple for the purposes to be afraid of the child know that this is the situation in the family, to influence their physical and psychological health. I felt very strange reason, he at one time, so he found me less before.perhaps, he hid for another lady because of his "D, but for an actor in his family than to come to me. If I Guild Wars Goldasked him at that time how he would respond. I reminded him of everday not find the lady. But he assured that he only loves me, this is impossible as the other. However, one day, someone told me that he was well treated with a girl in the shop. While I listend this thing, I lost my temper, and we are with each other. He did not admit his guilt, so we exacerbated by the constantly quarrel as a piece of cake. I was familiar with his wife, and his wife will come to our company before they divorced. Somtimes, I would go to his home, so he told his wife, my staff of office, to hide our relationship. Now, I could not do anything, I had to make a call to his wife. His wife told me he had not returned home after they are divorced at all, except the game with your child every weekend. I was highly upset when I heard the news. I think it is white and do not have any reaction. the fact there were more outside the home. I said I think the scandal, she said, she was too surprised to this.therefor, we begin tracked it. it was too painful for the result. My heart wasbroken and death. and I began to despair of him. True also make me angry, he is not with this girl in the place of the one woman who was 40 years old and divorced yet, and is also the ability and wealth, and gave him money when his business was depressed. so because of divorce on the ladies, not me, two years before.

here ------------- It took a long time for me to return here.Such long gone, I'm here now.It 's in and I still do not use English to write my own life, even Tho I pushed myself to write some privacy in the English language in my diary book.anyway , I am here, and I can write what I want here, because here, nobody knows who I am am.its very big for me. tracing my memories, so many things happened before I came back.i was with a guy I talked to about a year ago, but things did not work during us.but point, I made it as me, and we had a good time Lineage adenatogether.we no spoke in a long time.Now about myself, I have one guy who, of course, I can not help but fall into.but Truth, somtimes, we simply can not control our feelings.i subject to this guy, who no one anymore.but-I do not care.i I'm not begging to be with him, in fact, I am very happy where I am now. I can be around for a few months, we can go with it fun.even Tho GF, I just want to be his friend.thats pretty much what I want most right now.however, I am so sad and disappointed that he and his GF, to do some things together.i I think kind of jealous and upset.even I'm not planning to be with him, or something, but things can not be easily me.but I still let ourselves that, like the fact that I did before.yes, last one.its Deja vu for me.it think I was the same situation before.the guy who likes some other girl, and I just wait there, wishing he could like me or crush me or something.last, I did, what actually happened, I was with him for several months, I can say one thing that.this, I know this may be wrong but I never ask him to do something for me.i could feel that he has a crush on or me.i know that I am a bad girl, but he likes me, I know I should stop. In fact, I stopped so many things, I think, guilty.today he told me that his GF had to kiss goodbye, the next time, I invited him to win it back.it sucked really sucked.asking who U really like to get another girl sucks.but I know that this is exactly what you need to do.i doLineage 1 adena not want to betray my heart.so I think now it's with her now, hugging ... and blabla, things which can never belong to me.i cound not tell him anything about this.i not even told my best friend.coz I know what I did wrong again, I have drunk up again.i simply not I can do things right me.i have to force myself not to think, not pity, do not become greed.i cool to play with my feelings. This is normal, I can feel it, because it is who I am, as now, should I feel sad when he was with someone else instead of me.i can feel this.coz I love it, even Tho I can not do anything . because it can not be the one who belongs to me, and it can not be someone who can give me everquest 2 goldwhat I really want.maybe I lost my mind at time.things will be good again.i penalty could be reintroduced. Yes, I know that I am miserable, struggling I want to find out where I'm going to half of next year. But my faith is out of control. What I can do is fight and patiently waits. I must do whatever I can to make their lives better and better, and I should slow my pace to see how my life will go and try to enjoy the moment, I have now, my friends and my family.

Every day I spare one hour of time for the Internet. But recently, I was not concerned about the composition. Sounds bad news. It is important that I should become a habit of essay preparation. In fact it was something special. These days it seems to me a plate. This is an intensive revision for the exam. I made a study in concentration, caused a strong desire to receive the university. Although nothing can hinder me. To get the funds to skip at the same time. I have always used the slogan, I think: life springs from sorrow and calamity, death comes with the ease and pleasure. So I will stick to the end regardless of what happens. Repetition is the mother of age conan goldknowledge. It seems that I will repeat repeat and repeat until the knowledge is rooted in the internal memory. I want to learn by heart all night. It seems implausable. "More haste, less speed" is a paradox that you do not understand until you take into account the action. Okay, it's time for dinner. Loneliness will be my faithful company. God bless me, PLZ. At the moment, I felt a bolt from the blue to come to me. You know, I can not grumble before, because I was a lover and his family, even then, I made a fuss of all the events and followed him at all costs, I do not have any scandals him or interfere in his family. In this single day, as I have suffered pain and torment. I can not Rashe single day home.why, that he was so ruthless that I to this lady, this is unfair. Furthermore, hardly incredulous that he divoced with his wife at that lady. In the end, I am upside-down arow to him, we, as separate, so we had no way of stoping the dispute between us. I decided to abandon it. In that difficult, I myself have been locked in a room for three months, and I wept bitter tears constantly. This time, my life is not like a normal person, I do not go out of doors, but did buy a bunch of food writing in the refrigerator. Then, a left that place and came home when my sister saw me, she was statled see me look so thin and do not believe my eyes. I've been in many cities, but when I went, I believe that everything was, and gw goldhis shadow, though I remember it, I have lost my mind. I took it for granted that I phoned him and sent a message in connection with the I cling to the hope that it is possible with him again as well. I was familiar with his wife, and his wife will come to our company before they divorced. Somtimes, I would go to his home, so he told his wife, my staff of office, to hide our relationship. Now, I could not do anything, I had to make a call to his wife. His wife told me he had not returned home after they are divorced at all, except the game with your child every weekend. I was highly upset when I heard the news. I think it is white and do not have any reaction. the fact there were more outside the home. I said I think the scandal, she said, she was too surprised to this.therefor, we begin tracked it. it was too painful for the result. My heart wasbroken and death. and I began to despair of him. True also make me angry, he is not with this girl in the place of the one woman who was 40 years old and divorced yet, and is also the ability and wealth, and gave him money when his business was depressed. so because of divorce on the ladies, not me, two years before. Suddenly one day, I heard his' S cetificate divorce to his car, the facts prove that my colleague gave me a hint at all the time that he was already divorced realed. I asked him where he lived after the divorce. He explained that he preferred to live with his wife as a couple for the purposes to be afraid of the child know that this is the situation in the family, to influence their physical and psychological health. I felt very strange reason, he at one time, so he found me less before.perhaps, he hid for another lady because of his "D, but for an actor in his family than to come to me. If I Guild Wars Goldasked him at that time how he would respond. I reminded him of everday not find the lady. But he assured that he only loves me, this is impossible as the other. However, one day, someone told me that he was well treated with a girl in the shop. While I listend this thing, I lost my temper, and we are with each other. He did not admit his guilt, so we exacerbated by the constantly quarrel as a piece of cake. I was familiar with his wife, and his wife will come to our company before they divorced. Somtimes, I would go to his home, so he told his wife, my staff of office, to hide our relationship. Now, I could not do anything, I had to make a call to his wife. His wife told me he had not returned home after they are divorced at all, except the game with your child every weekend. I was highly upset when I heard the news. I think it is white and do not have any reaction. the fact there were more outside the home. I said I think the scandal, she said, she was too surprised to this.therefor, we begin tracked it. it was too painful for the result. My heart wasbroken and death. and I began to despair of him. True also make me angry, he is not with this girl in the place of the one woman who was 40 years old and divorced yet, and is also the ability and wealth, and gave him money when his business was depressed. so because of divorce on the ladies, not me, two years before.

In fact, I had never reluctanted him to divorce, as well as never require our relationship marked the public, while he with me. He said he loved me too much, and me to ensure I have because of him at a young age. so I make a decision to live with him, no matter how difficult, as long as I am in his heart. at the end of the 200 -, the company for my health product 's shop was bad at that I have my own business so that a large. he comes to my shop for business by investing in this business is huge. On the contrary, the more we come together, the more I became suspicious of him. in terms of emotions, I'm sensitive. i finded not only he, to see me less and more. Gaia Online Goldhe ignored, but also my health. It is a big difference than 2 years ago.in respect that I loved him, so I found a lot of excuses to comfort me at all times. i renconed that he was busy with the economy and the large pressures.and yet, I came to my senses after the situation was not the same at all ..... Suddenly, one day, I found his' s cetificate of divorcement to his car, facts proved that my colleague gave me a reference to any time that he was already divorced realed. I asked him where he lived after divorced. He stated that he had to live with his wife as a couple on purpose togaia gold the fear of the child know this situation in the family, so that impact on the physical and psychological health. I felt very strange only reason he was now, why he took me less than before.perhaps, he hid another woman outside the reason he 'd rather as an actor in his family than to me. I asked him if at that time how he would respond. I reminded him daily not to find the lady. but he assured that he only love me, it seems impossible to another. But one day someone told me that he had treated well with a girl in the shop. case, while I'm on this thing, I lost my temper and we are on every other. he will never admit his guilt, so that our Dispute worsens steadily, like a piece of cake. I liked so much, I asked myself the opportunity that we can be together, coz I know we get even with each other. But I can with you, and also told me that u liked me somehow, but I am sure that you have this feeling about me could be gone very quickly.coz, I'm not the guy for you, I also know we can create a beautiful future together.but finally, I ran for up.and that I am in another man, can I ever forget my real ex bf. x: I know and will never know why I came to my ex, deep inside, I know that it is part of his reason, I would forget about him, and I another man.but I regret that, never. Cox x: ur not from me, we do not belong together, no matter how good we are together, we r just friends, I finally understand this point.i am happy, even tho I'm a little sad. I have never forgotten u.but I'm sorry that I like this way.even tho u havent we began our relationship yet.but I know we can it happen if I really try, but I do not know, i dont know What should I Lineage 2 adena do to me, I do not know whether it is right for me to restart with ui want that to happen, after all, the reason why we split is that we are so far away. but now that I had the chance to live in the city urs.i know that I can make that happen, and we can restart.i know I'm the kind of loyal wife, u, I will never have a other man, coz i love u so much.but on the other hand, I am really scared.coz I fear that u do not love me like the way I love u.last time I looked, and I found out that u a little away from me, as it was, we knew each other only for a short time.but the truth is, we know each other so many years.just we have no contact, so that coz u often.maybe song me on ur gf.last She told me, and not after we broke up. u and said that it is so easy to deceive me, coz I really think that u a gf time.and on that I thought I would not bother ur relationship then.it since I was a long time to make one . but I still can help my feeling when it again.i u still like u much.but I am also comfused.coz part of me think it's just the feeling I can remember, u, do not feel that I still do the way u ur now. But I still want to restart everything with u.maybe somehow, I see the picture of ours.a happy family.but I know that I have changed perhaps lot.and are so many things ru cannot give me.i dont know, I did not think idea.just including lot.wanna back into urs.wanna back to U, in the hope and even more me.thinking on us.but I do not know that ur not.ur kind of man. From what I have been through, I've learned, I should be really cool to everything, no matter when it comes to my future or my personal life or the feeling that I should always be cool. Attitude is everything. My best friend told me that my debt, he said, so that I implusive. I have the choices and decisions impulsively. I am not saying that all of them were bad. On the contrady I actually enjoy the happiness of the impulsive. Somehow, I can enjoy the happiness of my quick decision. What I want to say is that I think a little more about everything. Even tho I could end the same options as impulsive. But I still need time to think, thought, I am dealing with, physically or emotionally. Maybe it's my problem that I always keep in mind that life is so short that I enjoy what my life rather than betray my feelings. So slowly, I was somehow emotionally rather than rationally. I know that sometimes I can be so rational, of course, is the time when I am with my friends on their friends. I can at this time is appropriate. But when it comes to my life, I can not control. So I have the irrational one. (a bad word? maybe.who cares). But I'm glad that my pace to change what is so called to my mistakes. I never chase being perfect coz I know nobody is perfect, no matter he or she is no one or someone. Nobody has this kind of perfect. And I did not press to get closer to perfect. I am afraid that this kind of life. I can just good for me. Its who I am now trying to figure out who I really am right now, what I really want .. such things as these. Try to accept who I am at the moment. I know that I havent done enough, coz I always hide something from my friends, and also from me. There are still dark secrets I can not speak and think. Coz I know maybe if I talk, I will be devastated. I have no idea where I'm at. Somehow, I just want myself further, keepy try. coz I believe that life does not end, and my journey has no end. But ironically, I know I have to end sometime, and to the development of my little world, until my traveling life.

My treasure Irreplaceable人生珍品 [1] Recently, I have a party for some close friends. To add a touch of elegance to the evening, I have the good stuff - my white Royal Crown Derby China with the delicate blue and gold border. When we sit, one of the guests noticed the beat-boot-up sauce, which I have the newer, better gear. "Is it an heirloom?" she asked tactfully. [2] I admit the play rather than striking. For one thing, it fits nothing else. It is also old and chipped. But the small boat sauce is more than an heirloom to me. It is one thing in this world, I will never part with. [3] The story begins more than 50 years ago, when I seven years old and we lived in a big house on the Ohio River in wow goldNew Richmond, Ohio. All those between the river from the road and our large front lawn. In anticipation of high water, on the ground floor had been built seven meters above the level. [4] At the end of December the heavy rains came and the river rose to the tops of the banks. When the water began to rise in a serious way, my parents, the plans for the case of the river should invade our house. My mother decided she would pack our books and their Fine China in a little out of the bedroom. [5] China was not nearly as good as it was old. Each piece had a gold rim and band of roses. But the service was her mother and her precious. As she packed, which China with great care, she said to me: "You have to treasure the things that people you love are maintained. It keeps you in touch with them." [6] I have not understood, because I never heard what I cared that much about all. Nevertheless, planning for disaster rather considerable fascination for me. [7] The plan was to move upwards when the river reached the seventh, the steps to the front terrace. We would be a rowboat to the bottom, so that we could benefit from room to room. The only thing we did not do was leave the house. My father, the town is the only doctor, had to be where sick people could be him. [8] I rise on the river several times a day and lives in a state of alarm hoping that the water would rise all the way to the house. It did not disappoint. The muddy water rose higher, until finally wow goldthe critical seventh step has been reached. [9] We have for days, things up until the end of one afternoon, the water is slightly above the threshold and crashed into the house. I watched, amazed at how fast they are. [10] After the water was about a foot deep in the house, it was hard to sleep at night. The sound of the river below was frightening move. Debris had windows, so that every once in a while some floating battering ram - a protocol, or perhaps a table - would bang into the walls and a sound like a distant drum. [11] Every day I sat on the landing and saw the river rise. Mother cooked simple meals in a spare room, she had turned into a makeshift kitchen. She was worried that I could say what would happen to us. Father came and went in a small fishing boat. He was concerned about his patients and the possible outbreak of dysentery, typhoid fever or pneumonia. [12] It was not long, the Red Cross tents to high ground north of the city. "We stay here," said my father. [13] As the water continued to increase, I have always busy rowing through the house and goes on the furniture, was too large to move up. I liked the series around the large comfortable couch, now almost under, and say it was an island in a lake. [14] A very late night I was awakened by a tearing noise, such as wood squeak. Then there was the resentment of the sound of heavy things fall. I jumped out of bed and ran into the hallway. My parents stood in the doorway to the in which we had stored the books, and my mother loved China. [15] The bottom of the fell through, and all the treasures we've tried, were now on the first floor, secretly under the rising river. My father lit our camp and we went to the landing to see. We could see nothing except the books, like little rafts bobbing on the water. [16] mother was courageous, it seemed, through the examination of the flood. She was stable and quiet, and held, resulting in a good condition. But on this night she sat on the top of the stairs with his head on the crossed arms and wept. I had never seen her, and it was a sound in their wines, which I fear. I wanted to help her, but I could not believe what I could do. I knew I had to find out what. [17] The next morning, after breakfast, I have a geography lesson and mother said I could get down and play in the boat. wow goldI once rowed around the stairs down to the mess of the timbers in the hall, where the terrible accident. The books had begun to fall. I stared into the dark water and could see nothing. It was right that I have the idea. [18] I have a wire coathanger hooks and carefully attached it to a weighted line. Then I let it sink and began to drag it slowly back and forth. I spent the next hour or so moving the boat and pull my line - in the hope of finding my mother's piece of the lost treasure. But from time to time the line was empty. [19] As the water rose from day to day, I try again a few remnants of my mother broke China. Soon, however, the water inside, she was on the staircase is located. On the day that water, beyond the gutter, my father decided that we should seek shelter in the tents on the hill. A motorboat was to us this afternoon. We leave from the roof terrace. [20] I am hurriedly securing things in my room. Then I got into my boat for the last time. I moved my line through the water. Nothing. After some time I heard my parents call, so I am back on the stairs. Just as my last round, I snagged something. [21] Holding my breath, I think the slow start to the surface. As the dark water drained from it, I could be the bright roses and gold leaf design. It seemed brilliant. I had found the gravy boat from my mother's china service. My line was caught on a small chip in the lip. [22] My father called me again. "This is a serious matter," he said. "Let's go." So I stashed the treasure in my jacket and rowed as fast as I could on the staircase is located. [23] The boat picked up and led us to higher ground. It started to rain, and for the first time I was really scared. The water could go up forever, could change the whole valley, the trees, the mountains. [24] By the time we were in a tent in the Red Cross, we were worn out. Father was made to care for sick people, and the mother sat on my cot with her arm around my shoulder. She smiled at me, if you call it that. Then I got under my pillow and pulled the gravy boat. [25] She looked at him, then me. Then she took him in her hands and held it for a long time. She was very quiet, just sitting, look at the gravy boat. It seemed near to me and also very far away, as if they remember. I do not know what they think, but she pulled me into her arms and held me firmly. [26] We lived in a tent for weeks, cold and often hungry. Since the flood Crested, an oil slick caught fire and burned down our house on the water line. We have also never again. Instead, we are in a home near Cincinnati, far from the river. [27] With Easter we were settled, and we celebrate that special Sunday with a celebration. While dad carved the lamb, the mother went into the kitchen and returned with the sauce boat. She was my gift for a moment as if it was something indescribably valuable. Then, smiling at me, she placed it gently on the table. I said to myself then that right nothing will ever happen, that the gravy boat for as long as I lived. [28] And not always has. Now I use the sauce boat as if they carefully from the shelf and it just as it was, with dark, rich sauce Turkey for family dinners and other special occasions. If guests wow goldask curious about the old dish, I sometimes tell the story of how I fished him out of the river in our house. [29] But on the events of the flood, the gravy boat is a treasure that connects me with people and the places of my past. Mother tried to explain, and now I understand. It is not the object, as much as the connection that I cherish. The small porcelain boat, chipped and worn with age, keeps me in touch - as they said they would - with their lives, their joy and their love.